The Mind of a space monkey

I am fascinated, fascinated by the human nature. The way we talk, move, try to keep ourselves calm, panic, cry, laugh, moan and scream.
The way we take care of every movement we make, the way smokers push out the beautyfully curling and dancing slow death out of their lungs. Funny how it seems to get life when we exhale but when we inhale, it actually takes life... Give and take. This is exactly what it is. It gives you comfort and beauty, you on the other hand give it the power to live it out.
I am fascinated by the decorations which we put into our rooms or on our walls. Funny that we need such things.. basically they are just nice to look at. No one really needs them.
Then again? what do we actually need? I say nothing. So why don't just enjoy the ride and watch and breathe and exist and live and love every single feeling we have? Why not even love agony, rage and the empty feeling in your stomache when something bad happens?
Embrace what you have.

If I was the one to be at your side,
I was praying night for night for thy to give me a sign,
Not an answer did I get,
not that I didn’t expect,
An answer not to get,
therefore I had never loved enough,
The idea of fate, in my dreams-I was a rough.
Now here I am, overwhelmed by thy powers I didn’t and still don’t expect,
I don’t know what to do - with this border I am through,
But still I expect…

An answer I won’t get.