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Lay me on ice,

Deliver me from here to paradise,

Let me rest now,

With time passing by,

Let me open my eyes,

When it’s over,

When all is bright.

Tired, sipping one more mug,

It all is numb, just one more cup.

Furnished buildings, lighting up.

One more scream, then a truck.

Toxic fumes are in the air,

A cloud of crows, feels like despair.

Then a shiver, a careless shrug,

Keep your eyes, if possibly, shut.


Lay my head against the grass,
Rotten roots are sticking out, it has passed.
Will it ever be the same?
A place on earth to grow again?
And as I see a seagull pass,
I hope destiny will find its' path.
And just for now, I wish no more,
But to lay my head against the grass once more.
Hoping that there someday will be,
Someone who will carry me,
Taking what is left of me.

How delightful and prosper you lighten up,
Make people dance, sing and laugh,
When you bring your joy we learn to love,
Enjoy what once was given to us,
And as we linger, in your embrace,
We feel the beauty of this place,
So why won’t you stay just a bit longer?
Your equal will surely though not want to wait,
He has to remind us of our cruel fate,
So next time we’ll meet, it will be delightful and bitter-sweet.

~
Concealed in flesh,

Jack grew up,
His body strengthened,
His voice firm and sharp.
His mind a razor,
Ready for the worlds’ demanding tasks.
~

Jack:

“I do live a humble life,
What I do not understand though,
Why was given to me this absolute pride?
Never have I been stuck with my plans,
Though often enough have I had to start again.
And lightning shall strike me if there is no meaning,
God, you must be there, it all must happen for a reason,
Truly I don’t quite understand why you took all my memory,
Left me here struggling with all that is intuition.
For blindly I now follow what I think is my purpose,
Scared that I am the only thing I can truly believe in,
All I want of you is to give me a sign,
Show me that there really is something divine. “


-
~
For what Jack now didn’t yet know,
Was that he’d find it only inside of his soul.
And the doubt within was a lingering demon,
Which would fuel all his ponderings, passions and feelings,
Trying to give it all a meaning.
~


Leave behind time and space,

Let go of all lingering hate,

Strip down your colour,

Stop thinking of fate.

Feel yourself flowing,

Pulsating crate.

Free yourself once,

And you shall not stand,

Ever at a point… close to the end.

Open your eyes,

It is time now to see,

This world… laying at your feet.

Will you be mine?

Taste this love,

And you shall thrive.

Don’t make those limbs brawl,

For they will surrender,

To this anthem of mine,

Give in to the bliss,

Be forgiven, give in,

Move tender and swift,

Feel your body extinct.

Make your soul be empowered,

Forget all reason and thoughts,

Become nature again.

Be with me, my love.

Is there a difference between Europeans and Asians?

Between the African people and American residents?

Yes there is! Culture and civilization!

But down to the core,

We’re all the same being.

There is no race,

No better or worse,

It’s all just about commitment and truth,

Now just think for a second,

This might be about you!

Would you hurt yourself, or would it be evil?

It’s time to wake up and help those who need it!

Dismember my peace and lift me out of my grave,
For I loathe the stench of those eternal lands,
Bring me the fragrance of great far-off plants.
Let me see the face of the immortal light,
Rip me away so forever I can crave the night.
Take all I own and burn down my house!
Let me see freedom from a different side,
Make them all know that I came back from the dead,
Tell them I rose right up from the grave.
So though shall now see,
This immortal pulse of deathly light,
With nothing but soul, not the eyes.

It was a day like none the other,

As I met you and no other,

With my head clear and wide,

Embracing the sweet November’s afternoon light,

And like a gentle summerbreeze,

Your look was faithful and of ease,

We talked and walked and got to know,

A fragment of each others soul.

Until this day I do still think,

That you are like hope itself,

A heavenly thing.

Today you turned just one year older,

Another step on life’s high ladder,

You chose your path,

I hope very well,

But the one thing that you must remember and know,

Is that you are never alone,

For I am here right by your side,

And I’ll always greet you with a warm-hearted smile,

Because I love you,

You are a part of my soul.

11.02.2009 ( Sorry for my late publishing of this one, I had a few problems with my internet. )

Eat your acid, take a breath,

Smoke that shit and take the crack!

Fill your lungs with gasoline,

This is it, you’re now ready,

You contract, react, so erect,

Give yourself just one more load,

So you can take it all night long,

The bass is roaring, the tom drum rocks,

You are floating, you are fucked!

Your pulse is screaming, your ears collapse,

Your brain stops functioning, you disconnect.

Step one you take the first single pill,

Step two is the one which makes you feel,

The third one makes you take some more,

On the fourth one you are already sore,

From now on you need it twenty-four,

By this time you’re already dead,

Take the pill, go ahead!

Ticking clocks and spending time,

On building blocks of scheduled life,

And by the age of twenty one,

We loose the sense of our own mind,

Responsible and precautious craving,

Pills and money, making babies,

Righteous living, saying “maybe”,

Churches, presidents, take the lead!

I need a happy life to live.

*

Take me home and bring me T.V.,

One thousand channels, I am pleased,

Deliver me sanity! Give me idols and belief,

I need that car in order to be relieved.

I need to see that shirt on me!

Give me porn and alcohol,

It will enlighten my entire soul.

Now the new disease is killing me,

Hope will come with the insurance policy.

*

Thank you god that I have this life,

Don’t have to lead an unhappy life,

Poor and homeless, not in the jungle,

Wild animals and hunting, that’s not my style.

I need my smoothie and my diet coke,

I know, this way, that I do exist,

Me, I believe in medi[idiocy!]ocrity.


As I lied down and stared at the sealing,
I figured I had this strangest of feelings,

It was of how very different you are,

The manner you do things,

Your thoughts and your heart.

You give me strength and I can’t resist,

Your beauty, your words, your sweetest kiss,

And therefore I’m greatful and it’s hard to believe,

That finally now this greatest gift,

Through you, my love, I have recieved.

And awake at this hour this I do write,

Because I’m thinking of you,

I love you,

Ruxandra,

Thank you,

For life.



Moonlight, dark haze, shining light,

How come you are tonight so bright?

Are you there to mesmerize the nightly creatures,

Moths and spirits, wolves and demons?

Will you come lift up the souls,

Which haunt old mansions, graves and bones?

You are the friend I want to reach,

Every night, when I fall asleep.

Now and then I feel much closer,

To your silence, wisdom, endless power,

Although I know, even by this hour,

That you are dust, a simple thing,

Speechless, dead, a soulless being,

And still you’re god to me, endless meaning.

( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu )






The hours pass,

You linger, you last,

The snow has taken the time,

The horrible dust.

What is it you wish for?

What do you want?
Is it fulfillment,

Is it my joy?

Doomned creature!

Is it my soul?


*


„Decay, lust,

Love, dust,

Matter, spirit,

Brain and soul,

Do you believe,

That you fulfilled your goal?

Are you worth any more time?

This very precious gift of mine?

Go! Now! Live your life!

But do you know how to?

Will you be miserable,

Or finally live your life?!

Why couldn’t you now…

Just die?“



( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu )



Here we stand, in Paris,

Aegypt and old forgotten lands,

Dancing by the light,

Which the moon us does grant.

Leaping and laughing and grabbing the stars,

We need nothing but each other and a thought,

Somewhere to start.


*


A cold winter night,

Your coat, dark red by the streetlamp’s light,

The smell of cinnamon and wine in the air,

It comes from a warm place, they even have chairs,

And as we step in, it is a bar,

An old man in the corner is lighting his cigar,

There are some seats of heavy brown leather,

He waves us to sit there and rest from the weather.


*


And so, not any different,

There may be more places,

Even in worlds still unknown.

All we need to do,

Is believe and just know.

Time doesn’t matter,

It is not essencial,

It is friendship and love.

A moment,

Above.



( Many thanks again to the lovely Ruxandra Popescu, creator of the painting, thank you darling. )



And by the roots it ripped and took them out,

It was enough, It had no doubt,

All the answers were so close,

For nothing would stop it’s craving for what,

It had found, now,

At last.

The light, so far, so close, so warm and sudden,

Was it blinding? Was it pleasent?

Might it be from god a present?

It doesn’t matter, it is new.

It is now granted,

It is truth.

„Here I am, roaming amongst!“

With a rattling sound it cried.

The earth quaked and heavens lit,

And all around awakened quick.

And since then,

Just until now,

It is still walking,

Roaming around.

( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu, thank you, darling. )


All of these years,

It was such a long way,

It changed me forever,

But now I can say,

I do not regret it,

I am not ashamed,

My blessing much greater,

Than all of the pain.

For moments like these,

When you laugh, when you smile,

I do know that it’s all been truly worthwhile.

When I see the pure passion,

The glare in your eyes,

That is the moment when I feel alive.

Thank you forever,

You dearest friend.

( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu, thank you darling )


Good night it is for now, my friend

For we're going to wake up in a different land.

One in which there might be no end,

Where all creatures, little and grand,

Do find their shelter in our loam and sand,

~

Good night for now, we shall meet again.

For only after parting we can merge,

Into the world of our thoughts to focus and urge,

To know what it is which gives us all life and delight.

When we wake up, it will be bright.

~

Hello darling.

You, by this very blue sea,

Will you be standing next to me?

Now that we both,

With our minds do see?

*

( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu, thank you darling )




~

And thus it happened,

Jack was born,

A former spirit,

Cast and torn.

Jack (thoughts):

„Lord! What gives?
Where am I now?

What is this feeling?

I am so… plump.

And this noise,

Where does it come from?

Is that me?

What is this place?

Why can’t I see?

Oh and this…

Drfting, fading,

So quick, so gentle…“

~

… Sleep has cought him,

Time will pass,

The roots’ve been cut off,

Now to start,

This wondrous journey,

Of mind and heart.



( And again, many thanks to Ruxandra Popescu, creator of the painting! )

Welcome to this land of mine,

Here where I am Lord to thy,

Where you will see thoughts so light and dark,

And pure passion’s pumping heart,

Will you be ready to dive in?

To play this game of beauty’s kin?

Where the horrid is behind each corner,

Where you’ll feel pain and pleasure,

Both exceedingly, pure in essence.

You will choose the path to walk,

But remember this,

Nothing matters more than love.

Now my child,

Be sent down with,

This most precious of all gifts.

Life




Welcome to this land of mine,

Here where I am Lord to thy,

Where you will see thoughts so light and dark,

And pure passion’s pumping heart,

Will you be ready to dive in?

To play this game of beauty’s kin?

Where the horrid is behind each corner,

Where you’ll feel pain and pleasure,

Both exceedingly, pure in essence.

You will choose the path to walk,

But remember this,
Nothing matters more than love.

Now my child,

Be sent down with,

This most precious of all gifts.


( Special thanks to Ruxandra Popescu, creator of the painting, )

And it has been lost until this day,
In which everything doomed to decay,
Can grant a wish and sing it up,
To once more spin the wheel of time,
For a darker pass of time.
When the trees seem to loose their lively vibe,
And the animals mainly retreat from life,
When women, men, children, gather inside the warmth of their house,
For it is the time when outside it’s restless,
Filled with all the years’ sadness,
And all the dead seem to be grieved,
In the mysterious songs of the sharp, cold wind.
And only demons now do walk the streets,
Reminding us how very sweet,
This life we all enjoy to live,
Truly is in this world in which we reside,
To make us notice that there is,
A pass of time,
Just as we drink, sit, eat, walk and sleep,
One day we all will lie beneath.



Mr. Sorrowcage was a foolish man,
Scared of witches, ghouls, black-cats, what a shame!
He believed it all, he was afraid,
And thus he chose that all his life,
He’d stay behind the door of his lonesome house.
A long, long time he had lived that way,
When he’d realized that he had turned old and grey.
He has never had a child or wife,
He had lived alone,
A pleasureless life.
He did not know of the world outside,
It seemed strange and contradictory,
He didn’t know what it meant.
But he inside,
Beyond the window,
Was dark and sorrow,
With himself and the day of tomorrow.
The day that he felt that his time had come,
He had found the strength to leave his house,
And whilst he was walking,
Discovering the world in only one day,
He had felt it all,
Pleasures and pains,
He had used his limbs and his voice,
Even screamed,
He wasn’t ashamed.
Enjoying it to the fullest and then,
In the same evening he passed away,
With a broad and radiating smile on his face,
Because he had fought his demons and won,
A feeling of love towards the godgiven sun.
*
( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu, thank you. )

All of this,
I wrote because I believe,
That on the 25th of October 1991,
It was not a day of grief,
For you have been born,
An extraordinary friend!
Whom I know I can trust and take by the hand,
Even in the days,
When everyone else seems to go away in the end.
Truth I see in you,
Everyone should be a bit more like you!
With principles, honesty, pride and all it takes,
It would make this world a better place.
Even when you’ve been brought down to your knees,
You chose to hold on and stand,
To fight for your beliefs until the end,
Although at times it felt like self sacrifice,
You kept going not looking back.
But you should know that you’re not alone,
In this life and through it’s tests,
For I’d do everything it takes,
To support you,
In any of these days.
Thank you,
For being like that,
A source of light,

A real and true friend.
Ioana, you indeed are,
From heaven sent.

Happy birthday.


As she went into the coffeeshop,
With scents from far off lands,
She thought of how so long ago,
She’d met a passionate man.
He loved the life with all it’s facettes,
And always laughed not little,
When he took her hand in his,
It made her weep a little.
It was his manner of wanting to know everything,
And share all of his thoughts,
That made her feel so drunk of love,
It felt all so strange and fulfilling.
But oh so soon he passed away,
Disease had cought him quickly,
Leaving behind a widdow now,
Who’d weep so many winters long,
Drenched with love forever,
For this one single mind of his,
Which gave away a gift so precious,
It was her duty to continue.
She smiled and laughed, was colourfull,
Enjoying every moment as if it’d be the last to live,
For this bitter love she felt,
This gift and curse in all it’s meanings.
It made her curious and thoughtful,
Had God himself been so evil?
Did it take this sacrifice,
To make her live in freedom?
*
( Special thanks to Ruxandra Popescu, creator and photographer of the sculpture )

For you, my saviour which has done nothing but take,
Why do you tempt me to hate?
Where is your kingdom and how do you love?
When every path I need to walk,
Is so narrow, so dark?
Why do you give me bitterness and rage,
When all I want is shelter, love… but all in vain.
The only thing I can hope now is that there is truth behind my faith.
For I want to believe,
That there is a purpose,
For all of this pain.
Is life just a game?


In my psychedelic trip to the sun,
I have seen all the faces that once had been mine,
I have been to the places which I’ve left behind,
I have thought all the thoughts that once had been in my mind,
I have found all the hope which I scattered in time,
I have dreamt all the dreams which have travelled the nights,
I have found my true friends and the loved ones,
In my psychedelic trip to the sun,
Everything had been just perfectly fine,
Then I woke up and realized,
It is not that perfect,
Not all has an end,
Those are mere dreams,
But in the end,
The world is mine,
And in joy I will find,
The peace and the love,
That I so desperately crave,
In this one single life of mine.


As they are and as they went,
They have spent some time right here,
Just to dive into a land,
Of which no one truly knows,
Wether someone really cares,
But for a moment,
Not too long,
A feeling was somewhere there.
I love you all and as I speak,
I wish the best to you,
For my inspiration lives,
And it comes from you.



As he sits there clutching in his fingers grip,
The bird which sings a song so sweet,
It would make even the angels weep,
A grimmace of anger darkens his face,
Why can’t he just fly away?
Scarred and old and ugly, but no!
This isn’t his soul! It’s not what he is meant to be,
He is meant to fly and sing, be praised!
Not grief. In a shell which resembles of a filthy thief,
But oh, what gives,
The bird all crushed,
It’s limbs so still.
He had taken it’s life,
It had been his will.


( Painting by Ruxandra Popescu, many thanks again for this. )


With your feathers spread,
Faithfully looking through the night,
You cut through the winds,
Like a pool of light,
Leaving behind a trail so bright,
It drives the ghouls and demons wild,
With knowledge and divine grace,
You burden yourself without shame,
Being aware of a bitter end,
You keep on flying,
Even higher with more speed,
Because you know that it might be,
For the better of another mind,
One that lost it’s faith in life,
You give those a part of you,
But you know that you can’t stay,
It’s not your world, you go away,
And in time,
You are forgotten, just a shade,
Which left behind,
A better life,
For a sorrow mind.


A martyr in sorrow,
Loathing tomorrow,
Loathing the vain,
Was this all for which he came?
Vividly the faces linger,
Of devils and demons keeping him tight,
Hanging on to his pittyfull life.
Although every single day,
The obsession had been the same.
He’d watch and stare,
People which passed,
With this horrible glare,
Because to him,
Empty they were.


This mysterious night,
Whilst the moon was shining ever so bright,
And the wind was singing it’s soothing lost song,
Which forever is doomed to go on and on,
Carrying the voices of spirits much higher,
I was thinking of you,
And all I desire.
Mostly I fear that I never will grasp,
This true feeling of satisfaction at last,
As I want to know you and be part of your soul,
Enjoying fullfillment,
And all it’s very sweet parts.
If endless this journey I do really not know,
But only the hope,
Is carrying on my soul.
Protecting this passion,
This lustrous unknown,
The sickening pleasure of the journey,
Building on my soul,
Giving me hope, purpose and goals.
But in the end,
What will I know?


When I first saw her,
I didn’t know what it was that I thought,
I mere sensed that she was it,
The thing that would make my life so bitter-sweet.
Like a light in the dark her presence shone,
Her smile so gentle and full of pride,
As if this world was something to conquer or to gain,
Although she had so much to blame,
It made her truly sick,
Poisoned by sorrow and pain,
Her world was one in which no one reigned.
She would rest for hours and fall asleep,
Against my chest, as I layed awake,
Breathing gently, breathing deep.
And as I had left my world behind,
The lie which was not reality,
In vain I tried to be still living,
For my sentece long ago had risen.
I was there just to pass by,
To give my best,
At least to try.
Oh, I tried to keep it up,
I hoped for good would happen,
And so it did,
But for what sacrafice?
She had forgotten and denied,
What I was and that I tried.
I heard her suffer and heard her blame,
That once into her life I came.
Bitter-sweet I think now back,
For I felt fullfilled,
I don’t regret.
My goal was not to hurt but just to stand,
I could just not endure it in the end.
But for some time,
I had been a friend,
And oh god knows I still would be,
Were I granted a chance one more time to spend,
A little while next to her,
Talking about everything and nothing,
It would never end.

As I stand on top of the hill,
Having the world at my feet,
I think about what might be,
Would I achieve my goals,
And all my dreams.
I clench my fists and tension my body,
Cause I am setting for the run,
Fulfilling my desire.



With love to everyone,
I am ready to move on,
Cause there is nothing now which can still keep hold,
Of this mind and it’s thoughts, whatever was told.
I will do my best, from now on till’ the day I’ll have to rest,
I want to find and fulfill my purpose, I want to face this test.
Boundaries are nothing,
They do not exist.
It is all within our souls,
We only have to do our best.



Miserably I am sitting in my room,
No gleam, no nothing, I feel like I'm doomed,
Raised without examples I lived on to strive,
For being acknowledged,
For being alive.
Trust is what I seek,
In the faces of whom I meet,
For beauty lies within the soul,
Not the brute, disgusting body of flesh and white bones,
Drenched with prejudice and resentful beliefs.


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