The Mind of a space monkey

With your feathers spread,
Faithfully looking through the night,
You cut through the winds,
Like a pool of light,
Leaving behind a trail so bright,
It drives the ghouls and demons wild,
With knowledge and divine grace,
You burden yourself without shame,
Being aware of a bitter end,
You keep on flying,
Even higher with more speed,
Because you know that it might be,
For the better of another mind,
One that lost it’s faith in life,
You give those a part of you,
But you know that you can’t stay,
It’s not your world, you go away,
And in time,
You are forgotten, just a shade,
Which left behind,
A better life,
For a sorrow mind.

A martyr in sorrow,
Loathing tomorrow,
Loathing the vain,
Was this all for which he came?
Vividly the faces linger,
Of devils and demons keeping him tight,
Hanging on to his pittyfull life.
Although every single day,
The obsession had been the same.
He’d watch and stare,
People which passed,
With this horrible glare,
Because to him,
Empty they were.

This mysterious night,
Whilst the moon was shining ever so bright,
And the wind was singing it’s soothing lost song,
Which forever is doomed to go on and on,
Carrying the voices of spirits much higher,
I was thinking of you,
And all I desire.
Mostly I fear that I never will grasp,
This true feeling of satisfaction at last,
As I want to know you and be part of your soul,
Enjoying fullfillment,
And all it’s very sweet parts.
If endless this journey I do really not know,
But only the hope,
Is carrying on my soul.
Protecting this passion,
This lustrous unknown,
The sickening pleasure of the journey,
Building on my soul,

Giving me hope, purpose and goals.

But in the end,

What will I know?

When I first saw her,
I didn’t know what it was that I thought,
I mere sensed that she was it,
The thing that would make my life so bitter-sweet.
Like a light in the dark her presence shone,
Her smile so gentle and full of pride,
As if this world was something to conquer or to gain,
Although she had so much to blame,
It made her truly sick,
Poisoned by sorrow and pain,
Her world was one in which no one reigned.
She would rest for hours and fall asleep,
Against my chest, as I layed awake,
Breathing gently, breathing deep.
And as I had left my world behind,
The lie which was not reality,
In vain I tried to be still living,
For my sentece long ago had risen.
I was there just to pass by,
To give my best,
At least to try.
Oh, I tried to keep it up,
I hoped for good would happen,
And so it did,
But for what sacrafice?
She had forgotten and denied,
What I was and that I tried.
I heard her suffer and heard her blame,
That once into her life I came.
Bitter-sweet I think now back,
For I felt fullfilled,
I don’t regret.
My goal was not to hurt but just to stand,
I could just not endure it in the end.
But for some time,
I had been a friend,

And oh god knows I still would be,

Were I granted a chance one more time to spend,

A little while next to her,

Talking about everything and nothing,

It would never end.

As I stand on top of the hill,
Having the world at my feet,
I think about what might be,
Would I achieve my goals,
And all my dreams.
I clench my fists and tension my body,
Cause I am setting for the run,
Fulfilling my desire.

With love to everyone,
I am ready to move on,
Cause there is nothing now which can still keep hold,
Of this mind and it’s thoughts, whatever was told.
I will do my best, from now on till’ the day I’ll have to rest,
I want to find and fulfill my purpose, I want to face this test.
Boundaries are nothing,
They do not exist.
It is all within our souls,
We only have to do our best.